Saturday, September 6, 2014

Living in a Dream World

Have you ever had that feeling where it's almost as if you're in a dream? It's a strange feeling isn't it? This is a main sign of my anxiety disorder but I still am not sure exactly what it is. I know part of it is because it's such a weird feeling to describe. All the things you are feeling or not feeling are so hard to put words to. It's like you're floating, but not. You're separate from your surroundings, but not. Life slows down. Any movement you make feels like it's in slow motion, but not. See what I mean? How exactly do you really describe it? I certainly have tried but my doctor still isn't sure what I mean. I know when it happens though. When I'm having a panic attack or I'm extremely stressed. I tend to notice it most when I'm getting ready to go do something (a trigger for my anxiety). In the shower it's like I can feel every single drop of water from the shower head. Any movement I make feels slowed down and extremely deliberate. Plus there's that tingly feeling. Like you need to shake something off but you can't. Anyways, I've been having these moments a lot more lately and I don't like not knowing exactly what it is.